I’ve been meaning to write about this for a while, so finally I am. I don’t have a specific end goal for this post, mainly just want to write it all down.
One of my favorite things to learn about a person is about their dreams and goals. What is their driving force? Where do they want to go in life? I get all sorts of answers, obviously, every human is unique. But without a doubt I’m normally given a clear and concise answer.
Mine though, they are scattered, pulling me in all directions. Which can be so confusing for me when trying to figure out what I’m working towards every day. I wish I could pick a path and just stick to it, but I often find myself wandering off the beaten paths into the unknown, leaving me to tread on with no clear direction…or just to simply turn back.
I want to spend my days and nights in a van I call home, cruising the country, my work being to enjoy my current surroundings and trying to capture the essence of it all. On the other hand, I want to further my education and continue working with animals, doing whatever possible to make a difference. But then again, I’ve always wanted to be a park ranger, spending my nights in a little cabin and my days venturing around one of our beautiful national parks. Or maybe just build that little coffee and book shop in the city that I’ve always pictured. As I said, its all a little scattered. I want to figure out how to make it all possible or pick the dream that I hold above all the rest… but then how do I make that decision? Some days I just really feel stuck, I know what I want and the steps to get there, but it seems so far out of reach that it couldn’t be possible.
As cliche as it sounds, I typically just try to go with the flow. I want it all to work out naturally for me, but obviously that requires effort from myself. Maybe I’ll just pursue it all and see what makes me happiest, or maybe next month I’ll have a completely different future planned. I guess that’s the beauty of life, we’re all just constantly changing and evolving…and for that reason, I don’t want to settle.